Sunday, April 26, 2009

days like these

Without benefit of a therapist, I am at the mercy of my own very flawed self-awareness each day. This means at any given moment, I can be bemusedly accepting of my OCDness or painfully distressed by my need to have all things Just Right, or frightfully surprised by a wild turn of mood, for good or wicked.

Bringing myself into balance means I have to reboot: I must find an entire day when I can start AND finish cleaning, straightening, & organizing everything that catches my eye and disturbs my sense of order. This can be unnerving at best - friends & family aren't quite sure what they can offer to help with, let alone touch or remark about; I am prone to growling and barking in the midst of this process.

I am trying to be less deranged about these obstinate needs of mine and have found that constant list-making helps, as well as the kindness of strangers [and familiars] plus deliberate attention to What Really Matters. I've designed a little photo essay detailing my progress so far (meaning, as of today, Day 3).

The List, made the night before and stationed in my bathroom so attention is directed early

Loving recognition from a truly lovely gentleman
[I will follow the rules soon, Larry, promise!]

My girl, ready for the Culture Parade

My boy, ready for Camporee

My man's offering to me ~ a chocolate cup filled with chocolate mousse, topped with cappuccino whipped cream and chocolate dust

The view out my window this morning



shrink on the couch said...

Did your man make that offering? There's your therapist!

katydidnot said...

also weird. i am cleaning and putting in order my entire house. in one day. the little people are cowering.

this is unlike me. i'm channeling you. our cyber bff-edness is showing.

Fantastic Forrest said...

Yeah, you're totally mental.

But that's part of your considerable charm, girlfriend.

Where'd Stu get that little treat? And can he explain the importance of such acquisitions and presentations to Professor X?

Danielle said...

I am totally impressed by your actual list and list format. You should print out note pads with that on there...I would buy one!

Danielle said...

And I know you got the award from Larry but I also had to inlclude you in my award list...You're just that special.

lisahgolden said...

Oh my goodness. You just described my situation perfectly. I reach that point where I simply must get everything just so or I will not be able to function in any useful way.

Gretchen said...

Um, seriously, hearing about you & Stu is like watching two little lovebirds. You two are so cute together.

Texasholly said...

That chocolate drink looks like good therapy to me! mmmmm.


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