Monday, March 19, 2007

lunatic fringe

Sometimes I genuinely question my sanity. I innately like routine - I enjoy making lists, arranging errands so they are completed most efficiently, scheduling the same chores for the same day & time each week. Yet there is a part of me that scoffs at this perfectionist, goody-goody, decidedly unspontaneous self, and this part of me not only tries to resist but actually argues with the other one. I'm pretty sure I am mere moments away from doing this out loud, becoming that crazy lady on the street corner who barks and growls at passersby. Lately I have felt more understanding toward people like that, wanting to sit on the sidewalk and share rants, maybe a sandwich. This disconnect from reality often happens when 1) I'm entering a hormonally imbalanced zone, and 2) I am facing great change in my world. No comment on #1. Regarding #2, I have decided to run for PTA president, and I'm desperately seeking a classroom of my own next year, yet I'm currently also committed to co-leading Paige's Brownie troop, teaching youth group at church, creating the Library Friends newsletter, volunteering for Make-A-Wish, keeping up with my book group, and being a fabulous wife & mother. Oh, and every now & again I like to shower, and eat. So. Something's gotta give, right? Here's hoping it's not my mind.


Anonymous said...

No comment on #1 either... mayday! mayday!

I love that you like to be involved, you make up for my apathy. I see you get most frustrated by 'newsletter' stuff but don't want to give it up. I rank your own classroom as top (not the money side, I see genuine joy and pride in you when you teach). I understand your PTA involvement, but am worried about your stress level from it. Whatever happens I'll do my best to support you.

Lisa Wheeler Milton said...

First of all, I have tried (unsuccessfully) to look at your true sally blog before and for some reason, it never worked. Grr. Until tonight. I love all the lists. The piece about Sam was so touching...

I hope you don't get too caught up in the whirlwind of all good things...I imagine it would be hard to say 'no' to any of them. They are all so worthy! But I know it is hard to do it all and do it all really well (which I gather is a necessity too). Anyway, let me know if you need anything, mid-psychosis, I will gladly be there.

(PS: The tickets are done.)
(PSS: I made several trips to goodwill today. Feels GREAT.)

Anonymous said...

Weird, I didn't notice a spot that said fun with BFF!? It must have been near the top and I just don't remember it. Wait, coctails at Roots wasn't on there either! Down with eating and showering you must reprioritize immediately!

Jen B :)


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